In The Beginning...

For years I have loved the idea of writing - not actually writing... but the idea of it. I hated every writing assignment in high school and college, but there was something inside me that always dreamed of writing.

I think I disliked the structure of writing. The pressure to write, or being forced to write about something I cared nothing about. I disliked writing because I did not excel in intellectual discovery, persuasion, or grammatical structure. But on occasion I experienced glimpses of the joy I found in writing.

Growing up, and in fact to this very day, verbalizing my thoughts proves very difficult. Expressing my feelings out loud (coherently) seemed impossible at times. I remember the difficulty being so great in high school that one time I took a zero on a speech assignment rather than give the speech.

Throughout college my greater struggles were understanding what was going on within my soul. You could ask me how I felt about something and I would find it difficult to tell you what I was feeling... about almost anything. It was during these times that I began to find myself through the process of writing. I began to gain insight into my soul and hear the promptings of God as I wrote. Writing became a way for me to rediscover the desires God planted within my heart.

As I begin to write more regularly, I have found that I need to write. I am discovering that I connect deeply with God through writing. My soul finds the words it longs to speak... and God reveals Himself to me through this process. My hope is that God will use my words to speak to you... but this isn't all about you - it is about me processing who Jesus is.

My intent is to post daily. The reality is that I still hate writing assignments and the pressure to write. I write when I feel led. I write when God stirs my soul. This blog has become my journal, and these posts will mark events on my journey.

The Disruptive Life? You may be wondering where I came up with this name. Well... if you want to follow Jesus, you better be prepared to have your life disrupted. His plans are not always are plans...